So many amazing things have happened in this past week... all I can say is.... wow.
Most importantly... I found out wed. that my grandfather doesn't have cancer anymore! He had his 80th birthday this week and I think that's such an awesome celebration :o). I went to crunchtime last weekend and although I didn't really get to know any of the kids, I still had an amazing experience.
I learned that I'm not very good about sharing my faith, in fact I think i've told maybe two people about my testimony. I don't know why I'm so scared sometimes to share what I feel, I guess I just feel like I don't want to throw my faith in someone's face, but at the same time, I have trouble even talking w/ other Christian's about it. I feel awkward sometimes, but i know I shouldn't. I've been a Christian for about two years now, and I feel like I'm just now able to come out and share my emotions with others. I'm used to suppressing my emotions and expressing them in a way I shouldn't. I dont know where I'm going w/ this exactlly, I guess I'm trying to say that in the last few weeks I've finally realized where I belong and where I stand in my relationship with God, and I know it needs improvement. It blows me away how this infinite being's only desire is to be closer to me and call me his child. I'm not worthy of that, I never will be. This is the closest relationship I could and should have, closer than any love imaginable. Yet why do i push away? because, honestly, I'm scared of something that close to me, but its the one thing that I know is true and real and permanent in this world.